Tuesday, May 26, 2009

hello, its been a while

no clean goodbyes, but it doesnt matter

To know you're happy with life,

thats all i need to know.

So long old friend. or, mayb, human.

I have always wanted to write in my diary but its not really safe. cause mom will read it and ya yarr.

ah. watched night at the museum two today.
with adrienna, asshole, sunny and chou.


AHHHH. SSSS FACTOR!
Kay kay won.
whoots whoots.
she's cool.
its soo hilarious this show.
how the girls bitch about each other.

uhhh.

lyrics :

I didn’t know at first
Why your gaze, looking at me
Made me feel so flustered
I always wanted to ask
If you understood just a little of my feelings
Although I never told you

Now I know, how you were as lost
And wandering as I was
How you hurt so much, it kept you from sleep
Hold my hand,
I won’t let go of you again
I love you, as long as I breathe…

Things stood still
When you, who’d always treated me coldly,
Smiled at me that day

Now I know, how you were as lost
And wandering as I was
How you hurt so much, it kept you from sleep
Hold my hand,
Don’t let go of me
I love you, till the day I close my eyes in rest

I won’t cry
Now that you’re by my side
Thank you…
For giving me the gift of you

Its White Love Story by As One.
used in coffee prince 1.
i love that song.
go listen!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pow3HVaJ-lk&feature=related

i wish God would give me a calling.
lead me into the right direction.






Ps : Isaac says i have very distinct dark eye circles. Meow.
i dont want.
but there's seriously many many chinese exercises to do.
i wanna slash my throat.

whats the use of insisting on your own views when majority are skeptical.

argh.

i dont see a need to push myself so hard. to achieve anything.
anw, who the fuck cares.

oh ya, the people will tell us. its for our own benefit, our future.
oh yeah? then why do they screw up our lives all the time.
thats not fucking helping at all.



SCREWIT

WHATS THE USE OF WISHING WHEN DREAMS DONT COME TRUE

this world is a fucking contradicting place.
everyone seems so great on the surface,
but no one knows.
not a single soul.
that behind that gracious look, is a blackened heart.

I've experienced it everynow and then.

I say yes, you force me to say no
and when i say no, you assume that im being unsincere and fuckshit.
what the fuckkk is your fugly problem.

i dont know.
i must have done sth wrong in my past life.
to end up who i am now.

blackandwhite! at 8:59 PM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Something really saddening.
I just took this facebook quiz, what kinda christian are you
and i got the answer : a hypocrite!
............
i think cause i answered that i rarely read my bible,
and that if my boss ever wants me to lie in a lawsuit to keep my job, i said, that it would be hard to decide cause my family depends on my income and so forth. thats one of the option lur.
and yeah, i became a hypocrite !
..............
But i know. my bad, i dont connect with God at all.
The bible thing is one eg, and its like. when i go to church, i feel lost.
the lectures bore me. but small group is okay. i likee.

Anw. I HATE SATS
Im always sad on sats.
I HATE SATS
i shld carry on reading my how to be a happy teenager book :/
ate dinner at nine pluss . FRESH SUBWAY
always.
and went to the arcade with my bro sis and mum.
hilarious.
i couldnt join in the racing games with my bro and sis.
ended up, i drove alone -.-
ahhh.

in the afternoon, shopped a lil.
and, starbucks is really really making me poor.
mayb ppl will end up in rags because of it.
oh, bought moulin rouge dvd. or cd. whatever.
gonna watch it now.
its 12.37?
i dont think i'll go kinders tmr.
chem at 8 this morning was exhausting.
i managed to stay awake, but the getting up part.
DANG!
O's in two weeks.
countdown, roughly 14 more days.
OH OH OH
Lala just told me that Malaysia has one case of H1N1
and that Singapore will tighten up and stuffs.
ah yes, hope school will close (: HAHAHA

blackandwhite! at 12:32 AM

Friday, May 15, 2009

Ahhh.

Romeo romeo, i've been feeling so alone.

Heh, just watched a few leonardo dicaprio's youtube vids.
mainly, romeo and juliet, catch me if you can, titanic.
diaoz,
in the past, i thought leonardo dicaprio was dead alryd.
sorry, no ill intentions. but yarh.
or some soccer player.
anw, he's rather modern looking. LOL
tsk tsk, school's getting up my nerves.
i'll be practically spending my entire day in schoool. SUCK.
i love coffee prince. its a korean drama. Gong Yoo is ffing hot. and, Yoon Eun Hye is . yupp, the same :D
shld i go for chem tmr morning ? :/
its at 8, gosh. mayb i wont be able to bring myself to bathe and eat breakfast. then i'll just fall back onto the bed and. zzzzzzzzzzzz

blackandwhite! at 11:38 PM