Cause I cant turn to you, when it all falls apart;

Thursday, May 20, 2010

How should i put it.

Im fucking pissed, and i really wanna shout in your faces,

but yknw what.

im not one to express my feelings out loud.

its like, i keep compromising.

everything HAS to go your way.

when has it ever been mine?

its true.

things would never ever stay the same.

friendship from the present or future, cannot be compared to that of the past.

its no longer steadfast.

even as i type this, i cant fucking spit out what i wanna say.

once im bitchgirl, i cant redeem myself.

whatever forever.

things were turning out fine actually this week.

fuck you.

blackandwhite! at 11:01 PM

Monday, May 10, 2010

HI FFL!
I CANT BELIEVE YOU STILL READ MY BLOG.
its very consoling.
cause i thought my blog is devoid of readers.
sigh.

im still having my persistent cough and sorethroat.

at night, its a nightmare.

anyway, tomorrow i have to bring cody to the vet.

and play tennis at night.

i dont like going to school.

i dont know why.

mayb cause i cant see you.

despite me noting to myself that

my world should not just revolve around memories of you.

but i cant help, to stop and ponder, just what are you doing right now.

is my smile lingering in your mind?

or maybe its some other girls'.

im so confused.

taking all that stupid quizzes,

so redundant and silly.

right now, i just wish to embark on my mission trip and serve the Lord and the world.

blackandwhite! at 8:48 PM

Sunday, May 09, 2010

baby if they ask me, i would say, i dont even know your name

and when they ask me, does it change, no it dont change a thing

cause its sth bout the way you love me

sth bout the way you know me

and i cant explain enough

something about our future love

and thats how im feeling right now.

I can deny that i dont know you, your name your existence,

but i know deep down that it changes nothing.

i still feel for you.

but its okay,

i will miss you i will long for you

but i wont tell you.

i'll see you but i wont say hi.

i'll play with your number on my phone but i wont text you.

cause i fear.

i wish you knew

blackandwhite! at 9:31 PM

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

mighty bitch, fucking bitch.

cant you effing disappear from my life.

i will thank you for that small effort you make.

blackandwhite! at 9:16 AM

Sunday, May 02, 2010

In life, nth is predictable.

the separation , the reunion. its not really up to us to decide.

so while we can, let us appreciate those around us and see to it that we spend every moment significantly.

thanks ass, for meeting me today at ion .

bad sorethroat of mine. kept me from blabbering away.

met alien after saying bye to ass, haha.

he's a silly monkey. i cant believe i waited with him for his taxi -.-

yeap, hopefully my sore throat goes off soon.

blackandwhite! at 6:37 PM