Cause I cant turn to you, when it all falls apart;

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

I hate it when i swear.

i feel mean to keefe.

i feel like i whine to him quite often.

Although i say that he's on my hate list all the time, i dont think i have ever hated him at all.

Sigh,

screw assignments and projects.

i prefer individual work.

even though group work is fun at times,.

I DONT KNOW.

I dont know what to say.

And those mean ppl out there, i just wish you could take a better look at yourself first.

blackandwhite! at 10:39 PM

yeahh. 0.5 from A for Marcom.

Sigh.

blackandwhite! at 7:32 PM

Monday, June 28, 2010

heh.

oH MY GOODNESS.

one goood news today!

MEDSOC DEBATE IS POSTPONED TO NEXT WEEEEEEK!

whaha. whaha. whaha.

at the same time,

happy one month pong!

hahhaha. whats ily ah.

foot reflex was AWESOME SHITZ.

okay, i'll upload a nice photo yeah (:

look, who's having a shiookkk time

tadah! im not that short actually okay.

anyways, snw was a waste of timeee today.

we just kept playing games.

OH.

erman officially promised not to bully me anymore.

haha,

i've earned his respect as a love guru (:

im so glad things are fine for him!

hmmm.

trg tmr . sigh.

ooh. my mum just told me wimbledon's dress code is white.

WOW.

len's dress code is HOT. ahah

blackandwhite! at 11:05 PM

Fuck lar.

sigh

I wish i knew what people were thinking.

so that i know what actions i can take.

I dont like to guess,

and i dont like getting disappointed.

IF human nature was to never change,

sigh.

You alone can rescue,

you alone can save

you alone can lift us from the grave

you came down to find us

led us out of death

to you alone belongs the highest praise.

God is the only one who will love us unconditionally.

Be it good times or bad,

i guess he's really the ultimate one who will stand by us.

im glad that i chose him.

blackandwhite! at 11:51 AM

Saturday, June 26, 2010

my mum wants to eat crab for dinner. my bro's out. so its only her, lala and i.

Len:

Your mother ask where you are

Lala:

Tell your mother i at friend's house. Coming back for dinner. 'll leave around 6?

Len:

Your mother say eat dinner at your friend's house

Lala:

no dinner la

Len:

Your mother say come back for crab! NOW!

Lala:

But I'm not done w/work!

Len:

Your mother say fine. Come back before six-thirty otherwise no crab. Eat yourself

Lala:

Wl. Where got like that one.

hahha, actually, i made up everything my mum said :D

she's been texting me with lotsa !

so i told her i'll reply her in CAPS next time.

blackandwhite! at 5:10 PM

taking a trip down memory lane.

i think olivia ong's voice is really soothing.

okay, im gonna download this song im listening to now.

again, so shagged.

and my hand feels swollen ):

blackandwhite! at 3:43 PM

Friday, June 25, 2010

so shagged.

i need some perks.

blackandwhite! at 10:31 PM

how do we know its the limits if we let our heart control us.

then again, how can we avoid letting our hearts take control.

sometimes i fear that friendships backfire when it goes beyond average.

It seems that when we ask for more, we get back less.

And that one step we took, could lead to immortal silence.

I wanna watch IRIS!

it seems like a really romantic and sad show.

and i think the OST sounds good.

arghhhhh.

my body is aching like crap.

and i have an ugly bruise on my knee.

sigh.

i hate landing on my butt when i slip and fall. completely unglam.

okay, gotta go buy lunch noww.

yay, doctor appointment postponed to 13 august.

blackandwhite! at 11:45 AM

there's no breakfast today :/

so i gotta eat this frozen egg tart !

anyway.

last night was pretty fun :D

we finished our script & ordered dominos.

went a little highhh.

pong ah pong. you red bird.

but thanks for the massage! whhaha.

i hope erman gets his thoughts sorted out and that there will be a happy ending.

yeapp.

i hate my dreams.

blackandwhite! at 11:05 AM

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

okay, i think im really really lazy.

wait, why am i lazy.

oh,

i dont wanan continue from where i left .

anw,

i have an ulcer now.

its irritating the shit out of me.

tennis was tiring. i only played one match,

and. yeahh.

oh wells.

i wish i could just put it behind me.

and kiss desperate goodbye.

blackandwhite! at 12:10 AM

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Whew.

Im finally back from cambodia.

Okay, im just gonna lash everything out here.

word for word ( i'll try my best ) from the journal i wrote in.

Day 1

Oh God let us be

a generation that seeks

who seeks your face

oh God of Jacob

Give us clean hands

give us pure hearts

We spent the first day eating, sleeping and planning. I feel really lethargic.

Must be the half an hour sleep before the plane ride.

Im not supposed to be pigging! okay, im gonna drink water throughout the week

and no soft drinks allowed at all!

The church service we attended was pretty good if not for the fact that i was dozing off when the pastor was talking about stars. And the pamphlet slipped out of my hands 3 times. Apparently, little kids aged perhaps, 7-11, were leading worship & they were also ushering. AMAZING yeah

And I was so absorbed with this superlicious cute lil girl who's like mixed.

OH MAN, I wanna eat her! KEEEEDINGG

Oh oh! I remember. we took the tok tok! its like pronounced as toot toot.

Its sth like a trishaw in singapore but its cooler lur.

And on the way, we just kept singing children hymms like father abraham and christ in the vessel.

Really thankful that God blessed us with a nice place and pretty cooling weather - Im referring to morning and night only. Heh

Back to tok tok, on the way back after dinner, the sky was dark blue and luscious red, its like you can see this horizon layer sorta thing. It was beautiful, spectacular? Lol. That reminds me of Moulin Rouge.

I ended the night with a HTHT with tiff and she knows my 'secret' and i know hers. Actually, I bet I knew hers way back (:

Sigh. Feels like everyone's facing spiritual warfare.

Oh, I've also found out that Im in Reynard's team which means we would be going to the slum. We don't get to go to the village. BOOHOO

Hi pong, gay bf.

Wonder what you are doing nowww.

Miss me norttt. HAHA

I bet you are watching a movie with some other girl lar. Tsk!

Okay yknw what. I bet you forgotten my link in the first place. WTEVER!

PS: I don't like how MH stares at me. turn-off!

Day 2

Went to the slum & on the way there, it was really breezy since we were on the TT.

We really enjoy the long journey because we can worship along the way.

EVERYBODY NEEDS SOME L-O-V-E!

Well, I must say, the slum wasnt exactly what I expected it to be.

After watching slumdog millionaire, I thought it would be really torn-down, broken, dilapitated and all. Hmmm, there weren't swarms too.

So, praise God.

Otherwise there would really be many houseflies, those really huge buzzy kinds.

Upon reaching, some kids were already hugging us. We had to set out to beckon kids to come to the hut.

I went with tiff ad this boy and his bro answered when we called them. The younger one had houseflies on his nose and his face but all these seemed oblivious to him.

He just carried on walking behind us, chewing on sth succulent i suppose?

Seems like a tomato.

In between steps, he would stop to kick the rocks and dig his feet into the sand. yeahh. And did I mention? Half the kids were naked in a way, either top half naked or stark naked. Uh huh.

They were also barefooted.

Yes back to the little boy.

The other bro ran off to wear his pants and when he came out, he grabbed my hand and walked. At first, I was shocked and a lil' hesitant as to whether I should hold his because he was licking his fingers. But i thought, it's not like I can't wash my hands after that...

Okay. When everyone gathered at the hut, we sang some songs and a few of us blending in with the kids. This girl came to me and simply collapsed into my lap. HAHA. I remember this pair of siblings. the boy had hair until his shoulder and the sister too. They were so adorable and sweet. (okay, but i found out that the boy's not a boy, 'he' s actually a 'she' )

My group was in charge of games so we didnt know what was going on inside the hut.

But i heard that during the language lesson, a young boy got stung by a scorpion. It was as big as his feet and the poor fellow was crying. Sigh

When we were leaving, the kids hugged us and all.

I love how they open up to strangers so easily; the world could do better with such innocence.

Anyway, when we got back to base we were intending to go to the supermarket once more to stock up on groceries and the hygience materials. Sadly, it rained.

A few of us cycled to get the stuffs from roadside stalls. Well , I cant cycle. So I didnt join them.

Anyway, I found out that I would be going to the village after all to teach hygience. We are gonna wash their hair and trim their nails, hopefully not all would have lice. hmm,

do lice jump?

I have no idea. But anyway, I get to do the HANDS skit. oh so fun.

Hmmm. Stupid Sean Lim came up with this ALD lame shit. He was thinking of AIDS then he was like, "i know what you are. ALD! Ah Lian Disorder . HAHAHHAHA" -.- Okay, wtv. Then that Mh joined in. Like, wth? He's not even funny. & he has no rights to even joke about it.

Day 3

unconditional love,

some people whom we don't like, we dont love them

we should not judge, only God judges us.

"love one another just as I love you "

5 ways to show love: (through)

touch

gifts

time

words of affirmation

acts of service

have you ever teared so much till there's nothing left to shed?

well I have. And then I know, it sucks to be human.

Day 4

Yes it is true. It is better to be loved than to love.

It was a dream i'll carry on holding.

okay, im in a better mood now.

It's like 920 pm and i just had my mosquito count ... 11 !

yay, my favourite number.

hmmm, today was eventful.

the kids introduced themselves to me.

They were like, Lipat, Poah, Mai, Luna and... sth.

HAHA, and Poah kept hugging me.

I love him ( see, i haven realised that he's a she )

Poah with a hula skirt

Poah with pants under the hula skirt

Poah who is always with a plastic bag

Poah with long hair

Poah with his top

Poah who Len loves

We had to act out a skit which our group totally sucked i think, AND WHY AM I ALWAYS MARIA? hAHHA.

Stupid Chan. whoa, cant believe it's gonna be the 5th day soon.

Day 5

Who are we to judge?

...

the spirit produces love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control.

there's no grey; only black or white

but who will be there to correct us

to be continued ...

blackandwhite! at 4:15 PM

Saturday, June 12, 2010

he may not be the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,

but he's definitely the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.

i'll always keep you in thoughts.

blackandwhite! at 2:28 AM