Cause I cant turn to you, when it all falls apart;

Sunday, March 06, 2011

it's almost being a year since we've met. im really glad we had those past experiences. as much as i would love it to be revived, sigh. i dont know how to continue.

imy so much.

and you dont.

goodnight

blackandwhite! at 10:43 PM

Friday, October 01, 2010

hi i think i suck alot, my wordpress is evidence. bye

blackandwhite! at 11:34 PM

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

i have not not been bloggin, i've just stopped using blogger.

blackandwhite! at 3:13 PM

Sunday, August 29, 2010

its like, people i bade farewell to always end up happier than they are before.

so, anyone out there,

if you want more than what you are exp. nao,

just tell me you hate me and avoid me like a stinging lobster,

whoosh, you're on your way to the hidden fairycastle. YOU'RE WELCOME

blackandwhite! at 12:59 AM

grrrrrr

if that stupid chew pesters me once more about hot chics, im seriously gonna tell him to eff off IN HIS FACE.

seriously,

guys are so superficial ttm.

its like after he's given up on sinyee,

he's becoming so pretentious. like, everything depends on the surface and blah blah.

and i feel like a loser.

i never ever win.

blackandwhite! at 12:56 AM

Saturday, August 28, 2010

wtf.

my bro just came home and he told me that on the train

there was a bunch of indian hooligans.

and then a chinese nerdy girl boarded

then one of them rushed forward and slammed her face into the door

and then all of them acted blur.

like, what the fuck what the fuck.

and when this uncle stared at them they started pointing fingers at him and those around them too.

wtf.

we neeed more law enforcers!

blackandwhite! at 12:18 AM

Friday, August 27, 2010

such a strong urge to pick up the phone and text Imy but im not gonna do that.

cause i know i wouldnt get that back.

and i hope you didnt start talking to me because you read my post.

i really really hope you didnt read my blog.

otherwise, it only means that our interaction depends solely on my initial posts and not because you have thought it through or whatsoever.

blackandwhite! at 12:38 PM

its raining like it would neh stop.

oh well, reynard sent a mass message to everyone

- the truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more you try to avoid suffering the more you suffer in the end - thomas merton.

mayb thats what happened to me, i thought i would get dehydrated after tennis ytd so i bought bubble tea before playing and after playing, i got a BAD tummy upset.

so applicable.

anw,

supposed to meet wl and rayney to study but its raining non stop and i cant find an umbrella.

will meet mum at taka after that, thinks she wanna get iphone4.

i hope there will be good shopping :/

haven started working i FEEL REALLY REALLY INSECURE.

somehow, there's this egging, in me.

like, i need to spend time with a certain somebody but im not sure who.

oh wells,

blackandwhite! at 12:00 PM

SO SCREWED, i just typed a whole junk out and the window closed unexpectedly.

nehmind,

i'll just talk about today then.

met wl and rayney to eat bak ku teh for lunch.

IT WAS YUMMY, the pig trotters.

i never knew it tasted that good.

rarr, bak ku teh was salty, but they said its pepperish oh wells.

then we met bryan at cck and took a shuttle bus to warren cc. play tennis from 2-4 then we went to meet long at dhoby ghaut to eat justacia.

wow, the guys accompanied me to the airport to send joshua off.

yeah, chew wnated to see jessie , lol.

but he didnt really do anything to carry out his words.

on the way back,

we discussed about the bangkok trip!

hee, i really hope we get to embark on it.

anw, waiting for addy's call now.

i wanna work realll soon!

blackandwhite! at 12:00 AM

Monday, August 23, 2010

sigh, still no call. im screwed, im so friggin screwed.

i need to learn how to cycle, then i can go cycling and burn some fats :/

blackandwhite! at 10:31 PM

im waiting for the tcc guy to call me, but i think chances are really slim.

its almost 10 and they are supposed to end work at 6

hmm, i need to start working!

my expenditure exceeded for this month's budget alrdy. i feel so insecure.

but anyway, i caught step up 3d today!

its as good as inception!

i really like the visual effects and just how mindblowing the choreo is.

its so fairytale-ish.

chew's asking me advice about sinyee and him again.

im such a love guru. heh, or maybe not.

he said she texted him first this morning.

and if that was a good sign.

and if he should still keep hope and all.

well, yadayada, i told him that if he's not suffering while waiting, why not,

but he should keep his options free too.

blackandwhite! at 9:48 PM

Sunday, August 22, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADDY.

Ily very much and no matter what happens in the future,

you and asshole will always be my bestfriends.

i hope you will wear that hot devilish red bra that i bought for you and meet us yeah.

hahah, with sth on of course.

grr, mummy's eating sugar coated peanuts and i wanna eat it too.

went down to centrepoint to meet ass to get stuffs from the partyshop.

it was like going down memory lane

i dont know.

i have so many mixed feelings and emotions.

its driving me prissy.

you said friendship wise, i can live without you but you cant live without me.

but i think you are doing just fine without me, and maybe having a great time too.

instead, as hard as i try to deceive myself that i'll be able to let you walk out of my life just like that,

i miss you dearly everyday and im sure you dont.

maybe you are full of hatred for me now, and i dont blame you for it.

im not gonna tell you all this, and i dont think you will read this, until, idk, sometime later.

i dont wanna approach you anymore because, i know that somehow i will get hurt and the misunderstanding between us will get deeper.

i know this will be a regrettable period for me , but its not like i have never been through this before.

i know time will fill that empty space for me once more

for now,

i just gotta carry on fasting.

I dont want to miss you, but i cant help it.

blackandwhite! at 9:02 PM

Saturday, August 21, 2010

one thing i find admirable about chew is how he can carry on holding a torch for his sinyee, its been like , gosh, i just found out, when he was sec 1, day 1 of school -.-

okay,

thats still sth worth mentioning.

i mean like,

ppl give up along the way and all, but even though she has a bf now and she knows that he likes her but she's not doing anything about it.

he's still clinging onto that single hope, of getting tgt with her.

hmm.

at least that idiot has sth good about him.

anw, im reading cathy glass 's "I Miss Mummy"

and there's this section which she explains to the kid what love is:

"Love isn't something you have to do. It's something that comes from your heart; that you feel deep inside. When you love someone that person becomes very special to you, so that you want to be with them lots. And when you are with someone you love you feel all warm and cosy inside"

I think that's pretty apt.

i guess

Alright, in the afternoon lunched with mum and bought dark chocolate hair dye.

i redyed my hair and it looks better than the stupid red shit the lady did for me.

no, it was orangey to be exact :/

then went down to clarke quay for the mooncake schedule which i was told would last til 6 probably but it only took 2o mins, that inclued waiting time and filling up the time slots -.-

rushed down to kallang and catch the guys final singles.

A GOOD FIGHT PUT UP BY BOTH PLAYERS,

sadly the indian player, yuki bhambri retired in the middle, due to cramps or sth.

managed to take a polariod with number 1 seeded, marton fucoscic or sth. yeahh

blackandwhite! at 10:36 PM

hi there, at 1.05 am, i have decided to fast myself from you

blackandwhite! at 1:05 AM

Friday, August 20, 2010

oh my goodness, i just typed one whole lot of things and my internet dissed me.

okay,

i was saying,

just when i thought life was starting to suck,

things turned out better.

grr,

i think i can keep my mooncake job after all!

and, there's my chance to go to bangkok!

moreover, chew's father might be able to get us free lodging if chew comes along too!

yay yay yay

my hair didnt turn out as i expected but oh wells.

i cant wait for my long hair to grow out :/

okay,

i dont wanna type anymore.

Never thought I'll fall in love like this.

blackandwhite! at 9:34 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2010

good lords,

croatia guys are so , one word, no, two, SIZZLING HOT!

whoosh, need ice need ice! hhaha.

yog at kallang tennis centre today!

sssshhh, the main game was between the bosnia and the india guy.

linecalls suck ttm.

actually, i thought it was so so.

and there was a ballgirl who runs with her arms dangling by her side when she picks the ball -.-

and the croatia guy, pavic mate, sat in the second row, well, he's the bosnia guy's partner for doubles. but oh well,

the bosnia guy lost anw.

but it was a tough fight.

spectacular winners (:

blackandwhite! at 10:34 PM

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Haha, i swear hongkong dramas are the funniest shit ever.

anw,

met marcus hong for lunch , ate the studentmeal at ramen dan at clementi

met tyrone to catch the liar game, and nOPE.

tickets sold out again,

oh mann. i've been wanting to watch that the past few days.

oh wells,

i was so tired throughout, too lazy to walk.

oh , went down to the godiva outlet that he was working at taka,

i got a free piece of chocolate! that was worth, 4 plus.

like ONE PIECE, FOUR BUCKS.

whoa, godiva, atas chocolate.

i want 100 g of godiva for my birthday, i hope lala remembers that i told her that.

i see secret recipe in the fridge, yay! breakfast tmr (:

will be catch yog tennis semi finals,

tsk. might have to join the guys to watch.

lala said her friends also bought tickets, okay lur.

she 's hinting that she wanna sit with them.

FINE, I GET THE MESSAGE

blackandwhite! at 8:39 PM

haha,

met addy and laura today.

addy told me all that happened when i was sick.

its really heart wrenching.

i got emotional and all.

heh

i love you guys, addy , ass and peck.

if time could turn back,

i swear i will make sure i wasnt so irresponsible.

anw, xlb with the ymers was pretty good.

i was taken aback , when he called me alien.

like, he could still rmb?

HEEE

blackandwhite! at 12:33 AM

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

okay, screw jailbreaking.
SERIOUSLY, SCREW IT.
len's not very happy now.
i tried in the afternoon, and i tried it when i got home.
and im sick of trying non-stop.
i guess some things are just not meant to be.
even lala managed to jailbreak her touch.
okay, at least i know i gave it a shot. i think i'll just buy the bloody apps.
im not gonna force myself to attempt shit that i know i wont be happy trying.
that goes for every other shit else.
mamachan called me to tell me about timbre tmr night, some david choy guy.
and nope, im not going.
cause there's the xlb buffet which has been arranged way back.
but i dont feel like eating xlb at all now.
len's not very very very very happy RIGHT NAO.

blackandwhite! at 12:55 AM

Monday, August 16, 2010

jailbreaking damn iphone is a nuisance.

& i cant help biting my second nail.

fuck

blackandwhite! at 11:16 PM

If i let you go,
i will never know
what my life would be holding you close to me
will i ever see, you smiling back at me

i met yingyan today.
oh gosh,
i think girlfriends are more reliable.
tsk.

the shirt looks handsome,
i wonder if i should buy it.
but then again, its no longer worth it.
nothing can be tracked back.

blackandwhite! at 10:57 PM

Saturday, August 14, 2010

HI,
disappointment one:
didnt get to go to jb with lala and ee and uncle goh.
disappointment two:
didnt manage to buy working pants

eggciting one:

went to bugis street to check out sofea's mum's shaved ice stall.

she's a really sweet mum i feeel.

ass! you better call her mummy soon!

hahha.

eggciting two:

TCC actually offers OJT and pays us for it.

SCORE!

So during August, i'll work at some Mooncake booth either in Taka, Ion or Vivo.

And F1 event is in Sep, i kept thinking its Aug.

eggciting three:

My mother said okay if i go to bangkok with friends but she wont care about the expenses. not meaning that she wont mind how much i need, but, that, she wont contribute a cent. yeah. This shouldnt be under eggciting.

whateverr.

But Ass said she can go! most likely.

well, i hope we can goooooo. and the coolclique can make it too (:

watched salt ytd with the coolclique.

hahah, they said im saltier.

HAHAHAHHA

blackandwhite! at 10:18 PM

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

take me deeper, than i've been before
take me further God i long for more
take me higher than i've been before
jesus i want more
jesus i need more

every second my heart sings this

feels like karma

blackandwhite! at 7:29 PM

i dunno, sometimes you can always expect so much from people, or else you will get disappointed

wow, i like that! wise words from laura.

i hope i stop coughing, else i'll wake mummy up in the middle of the night non stop

anyway,

desmond started talking to me since, two days back.

i think its because i wished him happy birthday on fb -.-

its nice talking to someone whom you fought with back then.

let bygones be bygones.

it takes time.

mamachan made me take up twitter and be savvy and raunchy.

haha

okay, savvy and raunchy part is what i made up.

its really retarded since we can just chat on msn.

now she tells me we might not catch boeing boeing else she cant buy me my bath and body works when she's in ny and no f21 shopping.

i said, dont bring your wallet.

okay, mayb i should catch it with chua. wonder if he likes adrian pang.

lol

the cool clique really makes me laugh my arse off

i miss laughing out loud to myself.

blackandwhite! at 3:26 PM

okay, so you've blocked me on msn, and deleted me off fb.
alright , if thats what you really want.
im fine with it .
and you wanted to see where you were on my msn list,
well, you were under " youreverydear "
but yknw what.
it doesnt matter. does it?
i didnt see this coming.
not to this extent.
goodbye, i'll keep you in prayer.

blackandwhite! at 2:27 PM

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

take me deeper, than i've been before

more of you
more of you jesus
more of you
i need more of you

You are good, you are good

when there's nothing good in me

You are love, you are love

on display for all to see

You are light, you are light

when the darkness closes in

You are hope, you are hope

you have covered all my sin

You are peace, you are peace

whom my fear in crippling

You are true, you are true

ever in my wandering

You are joy, you are joy

you're the reason that I sing

You are life, you are life

in you death has lost its sting

Oh, im running to your arms
im running to your arms
the riches of your love
will always be enough

nothing compares to your embrace

light of the world forever reign

I love worship music

if life could be as sincere and true

blackandwhite! at 12:07 AM

Saturday, August 07, 2010

must i lose everything before i start treasuring

its like i need a wake up call or sth.

like im too complacent and too much of a perfectionist.

oh wells.

like laura,

i have really low energy levels these days.

i dont feel like going anywhere and doing anything.

except for shopping (:

thats sth i really really cannot say no to.

but thats if i can even manage to crawl to the supposed location.

oh well,

thank goodness marcom and gracom are over.

these two really sucked the life outta me.

went for npsu interview today.

its like a panel of judges in front of you.

LOCK IN YOUR ANSWER BO.

heh.

then the guys played soccer.

and there was this stupid joke thing about bryan, and , i dk what.

i hope its nothing to do with me -.-

im sure its sth sick.

i seriously dont know whats with guys,

they get excited over chio bus on fb, and then add them , hoping for, I DK WHAT TOO.

and bryan claims its for ec purposes only -.-

sure sure.

all you have to do is never ever let go

blackandwhite! at 11:03 PM

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

oh my goodness.

madness

im so busy that i haven been blogging.

anw,

tournament's still on.

i really really want it to end!

NAO

test later.

i wanted to meet mamachan at 8 to study and do gramcom.

but she fell asleep last night before studying so she woke up this morning really flustered and all.

i cant believe pong has a botak head now

haha

but its okay, i'll get used to i guess.

i got an iphone now!

but its batt dies damn quickly.

i talked to alien last night.

i wish we could still hang out like before.

i wish everyone wasnt so stressed .

i keep hearing,

im so stressed im so stressed.

sigh,

perhaps it would be better if they think of it as, i have many tasks on hand

cause when we finish em one by one,

im sure it would have a slightly more positive impact on us.

okay, i have no idea what im typing now.

wanan memorise all that silly terms for locvid now.

SAYONARA

blackandwhite! at 9:22 AM

Friday, July 23, 2010

i think im gonna fall sick :/

my throat feels irritated.

anw,

caught despicable me with pong.

hey youuu.

haha,

you just dont want me to watch with other guys righttt. haha

and stop telling me to cycle to lose the butt fats -.-

idiot.

yeah,

sigh.

the guys lost to ITE.

unbelievable

i mean, there were stuffs going on that the ITE guys are good.

but still, we lost 0-5!

im still in shock.

blackandwhite! at 11:20 PM

Thursday, July 22, 2010

okayyy,

today's match was totally unexpected.

like, we won 3-2

fucking close!

im certain i sweared like madd

i met marcus' s sis! melissa!

she's so pretty,

anw, i played with a year two. 9-1 (:

got back camera editing test and handling test.

A+ & A-

and did i mention,

my mum wanted to watch me play my match,

and when i didnt reply, she sent sth like

i buy you blackberry k, you play a good match. win or lose, doesnt matter.

heh,

i only read that after i ended my match.

but im thinking of an iphone instead? I DK.

thank goodness no tournament on fri, my body is aching.

whoa, erman massage's boomz.

really really release the tension man.

blackandwhite! at 12:08 AM

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

i feel like im missing out on so many things,

too many to list it.

sigh

blackandwhite! at 11:41 PM

Monday, July 19, 2010

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions .
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you

i wish i could say these. heh

its okayy, my true love kiss will come soon (:

hahaha. i saw you two today! asshole and addy! love you miss you.

blackandwhite! at 10:24 PM

Friday, July 16, 2010

when you say its nothing, i dont quite believe it.

blackandwhite! at 9:43 AM

Thursday, July 15, 2010

fuck novelty,

fuck the memories.

brainwash me

why am i behaving like this.

I dont want an explanation,

I want an escape.

&justshutthefuckup.

blackandwhite! at 11:55 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

"In Bruges" was surprisingly good.

sigh,

im so terrified for friday.

i can tear just thinking about it.

I remember all the nights I used
to stay at home,
On the phone, all night long,
used to talk about the things
we'd really wanna do,
I believed in you,

I remember how you used to say,
Have no fear, It'll be ok,
When you told me anything you
want is possible,
we could have it all.

Okay, i've made up my mind.

My feelings are gonna be neutral. LISTEN UP. neutral.

i wont fall, i wont fall, i wont fall.

hard. hard. hard.

cause i know if i do,

ill never believe again.

blackandwhite! at 9:46 PM

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

I thought I saw a man brought to life

He was warm, he came around like he was dignified

He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldnt be that man i adored

You don't seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for

But I don't know him anymore

there's nothing where he used to lie

My conversation has run dry

that's what's going on, nothing's fine Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel

Im cold and I am shamed , lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed into something real

Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

You're a little late, Im already torn

blackandwhite! at 11:48 PM

i feel like a friggin petty bitch.

may the achibubus win!

blackandwhite! at 5:57 PM

Monday, July 12, 2010

And I never know girl
If I should stay or go
Cos the games that you play
Are driving me away...

I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride, and my mind
So write down this time to time

blackandwhite! at 11:41 PM

blackandwhite! at 6:02 PM

and now, you're beside me

& look how far we've come

so close, & still so far

blackandwhite! at 1:24 AM

Sunday, July 11, 2010

at keefe's place now.

mamachan had an awesome celebration i hope (:

heh.

the helium balloons were lovely.

sad case that one.

anw, my voice sounds bad.

oh well.

i dont feel like blogging much.

wishing you a happy monday in three mins

blackandwhite! at 11:55 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

rarrr.

im in school now.

and no one else is here.

anw,

i wanna mention that singaporeans really dont know what is public etiquette.

as in.

on the bus, they dont move all the way in despite how crowded the bus is.

I MEAN,

they dont make way for new passengers.

tsk.

yeahh.

i know i wanted to blog about stuffs

but my brain does not operate well in the morning.

oh yeah,

last night's trg, i feel that i performed better.

i felt more confident,

but i lost to rishi in the end. heh, hello.

his long legs are so friggin useful. HAHHA.

he does NOT have to sprint, he just have to REACH for the ball.

Mamachan's birthday is coming up.

we must think of sth!

oh, duck rice at btp is awesome.

i love the combo of duck and charsiew tgt.

its really filling, pretty fattening too.

tsk.

i need to go to sentosa on sunday!

get rid of those tan lines and get ready for tournament on fri, otherwise it 'd be friggin ugly to see the white fats! HAHA.

OH OH.

i just recalled what else i did.

i watched finished made of honour.

my tian,

that main lead is friggin charming.

sigh.

you cant find anything like that in singapore can you?

i need to shop on sunday too.

yknw what, i think eugene is right. lol,

if i were to twit, i'll just spam it every few seconds.

i think of different things like none of it means anything.

hahahah.

yeah, so much to do on sunday. should we celebrate mamachan's birthday on sunday?

blackandwhite! at 9:31 AM

Monday, July 05, 2010

have we been neglecting those in the past

wassup with the new kids in town

cant we just be satisfied with our lot

oh shut the f up

cant help but wait

cute is my middle name (:

blackandwhite! at 1:11 AM

Everything is f-ed up, straight from the heart.

tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart.

gotta pick myself up where do i start

cause i cant turn to you , when it all falls apart

thats kinda true.

if whatever we had, just stopped.

then, how can i carry on.

okay, i think im gonna spend my night scanning my cute younger days photos.

there's a surprise in store for yall (:

blackandwhite! at 12:24 AM

Sunday, July 04, 2010

i just read one old post and i stumbled upon this :

Oh , I almost died today.

adrienna, yknw why right?

hahahah.

okay i'll tell yall.

I died cause she was so disgusting today,

she has to pay me 1 buck each time she is disgusting.

haha, and she told me that i shld pay her each time i act pretty.

Dont need to act what, alrdy am.

hahaha

oh, the pets at vivo! soooo lovely.

i think i wanna work at a pet shop during the holiday!

helll yeah

see me there end of the year! :D

sigh.

i haven been spending time with addy and asshole this entire year.

i feel like the worst shit friend ever.

are we still bestfriends?

anw, x men is on tv now.

im not really a fan of x men lur.

but i think the creatures are pretty fascinating.

i wanna catch despicable me!

AND OH SHIT.

i have to do my research for the debate on thurs.

I HATE HOMEWORK.

or anything of that sort.

i realise how happy i sounded in my ex posts.

i wonder do people grow grumpier as they age.

oh wells

i cant wait for july 17 !

I need to shop for a nice pair of pants to dance in next sunday.

blah.

Time passes like a lightning bolt.

oh, i like that billionaire song that keefe kept playing.

check out, itsmepaulina on youtube.

she's really good.

wow. jean grey is friggin powerful!

voomvvom. she's like a mindfreak. HAHA.

Just ate durian.

wow, its like a yellow bomb.

hee,

but im kinda sick of it now.

my mum and i shared 3.

not really huge ones but big enough to make me feel like puking.

music and lyrics next sunday at 7 on channel 5 !

hmm.

its not a bad movie.

but im not a big fan of drew barrymore.

im disappointed that you're drifting from church.

its okay if you dont come back anymore, i guess.

but i do hope that after EXPANDING your own world,

you'd still return to our abba father.

you're forever my dearest alien.

사랑해요

blackandwhite! at 9:10 PM

Friday, July 02, 2010

heee.

today was an awesome dance night (:

met john and we headed to mac ritchie , okay , however you spell it.

then we walk to mary mount mrt

and we went to serangoon.

whoosh.

and we WERE HUNGRY.

and so, we did what other normal humans would do.

we walked out of the station and like from exits to exits.

haha,

bloody hell.

we wasted so much time.

and we ended with no food.

anw, the DANCE IS FREAKING COOL.

im so thankful to john for asking me to join the dance. WHEEE.

i pray i pray, i pray fervently, that. tournament wont get postponed to 17 july!

rarrrr.

yay pong, your horrible days have passed.

you have worse ahead, but fear not. len is always here (:

im so amazed how nice i am !

blackandwhite! at 12:53 AM

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

I hate it when i swear.

i feel mean to keefe.

i feel like i whine to him quite often.

Although i say that he's on my hate list all the time, i dont think i have ever hated him at all.

Sigh,

screw assignments and projects.

i prefer individual work.

even though group work is fun at times,.

I DONT KNOW.

I dont know what to say.

And those mean ppl out there, i just wish you could take a better look at yourself first.

blackandwhite! at 10:39 PM

yeahh. 0.5 from A for Marcom.

Sigh.

blackandwhite! at 7:32 PM

Monday, June 28, 2010

heh.

oH MY GOODNESS.

one goood news today!

MEDSOC DEBATE IS POSTPONED TO NEXT WEEEEEEK!

whaha. whaha. whaha.

at the same time,

happy one month pong!

hahhaha. whats ily ah.

foot reflex was AWESOME SHITZ.

okay, i'll upload a nice photo yeah (:

look, who's having a shiookkk time

tadah! im not that short actually okay.

anyways, snw was a waste of timeee today.

we just kept playing games.

OH.

erman officially promised not to bully me anymore.

haha,

i've earned his respect as a love guru (:

im so glad things are fine for him!

hmmm.

trg tmr . sigh.

ooh. my mum just told me wimbledon's dress code is white.

WOW.

len's dress code is HOT. ahah

blackandwhite! at 11:05 PM

Fuck lar.

sigh

I wish i knew what people were thinking.

so that i know what actions i can take.

I dont like to guess,

and i dont like getting disappointed.

IF human nature was to never change,

sigh.

You alone can rescue,

you alone can save

you alone can lift us from the grave

you came down to find us

led us out of death

to you alone belongs the highest praise.

God is the only one who will love us unconditionally.

Be it good times or bad,

i guess he's really the ultimate one who will stand by us.

im glad that i chose him.

blackandwhite! at 11:51 AM

Saturday, June 26, 2010

my mum wants to eat crab for dinner. my bro's out. so its only her, lala and i.

Len:

Your mother ask where you are

Lala:

Tell your mother i at friend's house. Coming back for dinner. 'll leave around 6?

Len:

Your mother say eat dinner at your friend's house

Lala:

no dinner la

Len:

Your mother say come back for crab! NOW!

Lala:

But I'm not done w/work!

Len:

Your mother say fine. Come back before six-thirty otherwise no crab. Eat yourself

Lala:

Wl. Where got like that one.

hahha, actually, i made up everything my mum said :D

she's been texting me with lotsa !

so i told her i'll reply her in CAPS next time.

blackandwhite! at 5:10 PM

taking a trip down memory lane.

i think olivia ong's voice is really soothing.

okay, im gonna download this song im listening to now.

again, so shagged.

and my hand feels swollen ):

blackandwhite! at 3:43 PM

Friday, June 25, 2010

so shagged.

i need some perks.

blackandwhite! at 10:31 PM

how do we know its the limits if we let our heart control us.

then again, how can we avoid letting our hearts take control.

sometimes i fear that friendships backfire when it goes beyond average.

It seems that when we ask for more, we get back less.

And that one step we took, could lead to immortal silence.

I wanna watch IRIS!

it seems like a really romantic and sad show.

and i think the OST sounds good.

arghhhhh.

my body is aching like crap.

and i have an ugly bruise on my knee.

sigh.

i hate landing on my butt when i slip and fall. completely unglam.

okay, gotta go buy lunch noww.

yay, doctor appointment postponed to 13 august.

blackandwhite! at 11:45 AM

there's no breakfast today :/

so i gotta eat this frozen egg tart !

anyway.

last night was pretty fun :D

we finished our script & ordered dominos.

went a little highhh.

pong ah pong. you red bird.

but thanks for the massage! whhaha.

i hope erman gets his thoughts sorted out and that there will be a happy ending.

yeapp.

i hate my dreams.

blackandwhite! at 11:05 AM

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

okay, i think im really really lazy.

wait, why am i lazy.

oh,

i dont wanan continue from where i left .

anw,

i have an ulcer now.

its irritating the shit out of me.

tennis was tiring. i only played one match,

and. yeahh.

oh wells.

i wish i could just put it behind me.

and kiss desperate goodbye.

blackandwhite! at 12:10 AM

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Whew.

Im finally back from cambodia.

Okay, im just gonna lash everything out here.

word for word ( i'll try my best ) from the journal i wrote in.

Day 1

Oh God let us be

a generation that seeks

who seeks your face

oh God of Jacob

Give us clean hands

give us pure hearts

We spent the first day eating, sleeping and planning. I feel really lethargic.

Must be the half an hour sleep before the plane ride.

Im not supposed to be pigging! okay, im gonna drink water throughout the week

and no soft drinks allowed at all!

The church service we attended was pretty good if not for the fact that i was dozing off when the pastor was talking about stars. And the pamphlet slipped out of my hands 3 times. Apparently, little kids aged perhaps, 7-11, were leading worship & they were also ushering. AMAZING yeah

And I was so absorbed with this superlicious cute lil girl who's like mixed.

OH MAN, I wanna eat her! KEEEEDINGG

Oh oh! I remember. we took the tok tok! its like pronounced as toot toot.

Its sth like a trishaw in singapore but its cooler lur.

And on the way, we just kept singing children hymms like father abraham and christ in the vessel.

Really thankful that God blessed us with a nice place and pretty cooling weather - Im referring to morning and night only. Heh

Back to tok tok, on the way back after dinner, the sky was dark blue and luscious red, its like you can see this horizon layer sorta thing. It was beautiful, spectacular? Lol. That reminds me of Moulin Rouge.

I ended the night with a HTHT with tiff and she knows my 'secret' and i know hers. Actually, I bet I knew hers way back (:

Sigh. Feels like everyone's facing spiritual warfare.

Oh, I've also found out that Im in Reynard's team which means we would be going to the slum. We don't get to go to the village. BOOHOO

Hi pong, gay bf.

Wonder what you are doing nowww.

Miss me norttt. HAHA

I bet you are watching a movie with some other girl lar. Tsk!

Okay yknw what. I bet you forgotten my link in the first place. WTEVER!

PS: I don't like how MH stares at me. turn-off!

Day 2

Went to the slum & on the way there, it was really breezy since we were on the TT.

We really enjoy the long journey because we can worship along the way.

EVERYBODY NEEDS SOME L-O-V-E!

Well, I must say, the slum wasnt exactly what I expected it to be.

After watching slumdog millionaire, I thought it would be really torn-down, broken, dilapitated and all. Hmmm, there weren't swarms too.

So, praise God.

Otherwise there would really be many houseflies, those really huge buzzy kinds.

Upon reaching, some kids were already hugging us. We had to set out to beckon kids to come to the hut.

I went with tiff ad this boy and his bro answered when we called them. The younger one had houseflies on his nose and his face but all these seemed oblivious to him.

He just carried on walking behind us, chewing on sth succulent i suppose?

Seems like a tomato.

In between steps, he would stop to kick the rocks and dig his feet into the sand. yeahh. And did I mention? Half the kids were naked in a way, either top half naked or stark naked. Uh huh.

They were also barefooted.

Yes back to the little boy.

The other bro ran off to wear his pants and when he came out, he grabbed my hand and walked. At first, I was shocked and a lil' hesitant as to whether I should hold his because he was licking his fingers. But i thought, it's not like I can't wash my hands after that...

Okay. When everyone gathered at the hut, we sang some songs and a few of us blending in with the kids. This girl came to me and simply collapsed into my lap. HAHA. I remember this pair of siblings. the boy had hair until his shoulder and the sister too. They were so adorable and sweet. (okay, but i found out that the boy's not a boy, 'he' s actually a 'she' )

My group was in charge of games so we didnt know what was going on inside the hut.

But i heard that during the language lesson, a young boy got stung by a scorpion. It was as big as his feet and the poor fellow was crying. Sigh

When we were leaving, the kids hugged us and all.

I love how they open up to strangers so easily; the world could do better with such innocence.

Anyway, when we got back to base we were intending to go to the supermarket once more to stock up on groceries and the hygience materials. Sadly, it rained.

A few of us cycled to get the stuffs from roadside stalls. Well , I cant cycle. So I didnt join them.

Anyway, I found out that I would be going to the village after all to teach hygience. We are gonna wash their hair and trim their nails, hopefully not all would have lice. hmm,

do lice jump?

I have no idea. But anyway, I get to do the HANDS skit. oh so fun.

Hmmm. Stupid Sean Lim came up with this ALD lame shit. He was thinking of AIDS then he was like, "i know what you are. ALD! Ah Lian Disorder . HAHAHHAHA" -.- Okay, wtv. Then that Mh joined in. Like, wth? He's not even funny. & he has no rights to even joke about it.

Day 3

unconditional love,

some people whom we don't like, we dont love them

we should not judge, only God judges us.

"love one another just as I love you "

5 ways to show love: (through)

touch

gifts

time

words of affirmation

acts of service

have you ever teared so much till there's nothing left to shed?

well I have. And then I know, it sucks to be human.

Day 4

Yes it is true. It is better to be loved than to love.

It was a dream i'll carry on holding.

okay, im in a better mood now.

It's like 920 pm and i just had my mosquito count ... 11 !

yay, my favourite number.

hmmm, today was eventful.

the kids introduced themselves to me.

They were like, Lipat, Poah, Mai, Luna and... sth.

HAHA, and Poah kept hugging me.

I love him ( see, i haven realised that he's a she )

Poah with a hula skirt

Poah with pants under the hula skirt

Poah who is always with a plastic bag

Poah with long hair

Poah with his top

Poah who Len loves

We had to act out a skit which our group totally sucked i think, AND WHY AM I ALWAYS MARIA? hAHHA.

Stupid Chan. whoa, cant believe it's gonna be the 5th day soon.

Day 5

Who are we to judge?

...

the spirit produces love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control.

there's no grey; only black or white

but who will be there to correct us

to be continued ...

blackandwhite! at 4:15 PM

Saturday, June 12, 2010

he may not be the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,

but he's definitely the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.

i'll always keep you in thoughts.

blackandwhite! at 2:28 AM

Thursday, May 20, 2010

How should i put it.

Im fucking pissed, and i really wanna shout in your faces,

but yknw what.

im not one to express my feelings out loud.

its like, i keep compromising.

everything HAS to go your way.

when has it ever been mine?

its true.

things would never ever stay the same.

friendship from the present or future, cannot be compared to that of the past.

its no longer steadfast.

even as i type this, i cant fucking spit out what i wanna say.

once im bitchgirl, i cant redeem myself.

whatever forever.

things were turning out fine actually this week.

fuck you.

blackandwhite! at 11:01 PM

Monday, May 10, 2010

HI FFL!
I CANT BELIEVE YOU STILL READ MY BLOG.
its very consoling.
cause i thought my blog is devoid of readers.
sigh.

im still having my persistent cough and sorethroat.

at night, its a nightmare.

anyway, tomorrow i have to bring cody to the vet.

and play tennis at night.

i dont like going to school.

i dont know why.

mayb cause i cant see you.

despite me noting to myself that

my world should not just revolve around memories of you.

but i cant help, to stop and ponder, just what are you doing right now.

is my smile lingering in your mind?

or maybe its some other girls'.

im so confused.

taking all that stupid quizzes,

so redundant and silly.

right now, i just wish to embark on my mission trip and serve the Lord and the world.

blackandwhite! at 8:48 PM

Sunday, May 09, 2010

baby if they ask me, i would say, i dont even know your name

and when they ask me, does it change, no it dont change a thing

cause its sth bout the way you love me

sth bout the way you know me

and i cant explain enough

something about our future love

and thats how im feeling right now.

I can deny that i dont know you, your name your existence,

but i know deep down that it changes nothing.

i still feel for you.

but its okay,

i will miss you i will long for you

but i wont tell you.

i'll see you but i wont say hi.

i'll play with your number on my phone but i wont text you.

cause i fear.

i wish you knew

blackandwhite! at 9:31 PM

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

mighty bitch, fucking bitch.

cant you effing disappear from my life.

i will thank you for that small effort you make.

blackandwhite! at 9:16 AM

Sunday, May 02, 2010

In life, nth is predictable.

the separation , the reunion. its not really up to us to decide.

so while we can, let us appreciate those around us and see to it that we spend every moment significantly.

thanks ass, for meeting me today at ion .

bad sorethroat of mine. kept me from blabbering away.

met alien after saying bye to ass, haha.

he's a silly monkey. i cant believe i waited with him for his taxi -.-

yeap, hopefully my sore throat goes off soon.

blackandwhite! at 6:37 PM

Sunday, April 25, 2010

IM SO FREAKING HAPPY TODAY.
okay, first there was church.
kk, kinders.
took really sweet photos with the kids.
and we played animal charade.
whaha, jingen acted out an elephant. oh sweet child 'o mine.
k, addy came to ym today ;D
im so proud of her ,
she reached on time. and , in fact, earlier than expected.
i love you addy
stupid asshole thou.
dk where she disappear to.
oowee. anw,
we went for lunch at indulge this restaurant at cathay.
then we went to starbucks to sit for a while.
chua joined us.
us - addy, chou, sunny and me.
sunny is . okay, i shall not talk about him.
nth is able to describe him. seriously.
hahahahah.
then i met tyrone and ernest.
when we met, they were like. we have sth for you! hahah.
i guessed it was some kinda food since ty had chippy in his hands.
he took out this godiva choc. soo sweet of them. BUT.
it was dark chocolate with mandarin orange
dark chocolate is a nono, furthermore. it was with mandarin orange.
then ernest kept telling me, beggars cant be choosers. hahahha. wth
we walked from ps to orchard central and then to heeren which, along the way, we took many shots using my diana.
and OH MY F.
guess what
!
ahhhhhhhhhhh. the most exciting part.
we went into ion. thankfully ty insisted that we go there.
then in front of this really ex outlet,
gathered a crowd.
so ernest and ty were like, must be someone important or celebrity.
my first guess was like, OH FREAK. I THINK ITS JANG GEUN SUK.
cause i recalled that in the morning, liz was telling me tht her friend saw him in a restaurant.
whhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaa.
i rushed to the front and took a peep.
i caught a glance. it was really himmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
hahahahhahahhaa. then i sorta hanged around the area for a while.
i think i got ernest and ty in the mood too. hahaha.
yeah, then after that. we went window shopping. which, i bought this uniqlo male jacket for 20 dollars which is a real bargain cause before the sales, its like 49.90.
awesome me :D
ty bought this ex choc which cost 12 bucks for like, only six squares. or cubes. not exactly cubes cause they were flat. from ch. factory or industry from wheelock.
it wasnt up to our expectations, lol. waste of money. really!
could not follow them to arab for kebab. so sad ;/
anw, my mum said i could go to cambodia for the mission trip! another happy thing.
today is an awesome day.
praise the lord.
there is no need to fml at the moment.
whahhaa.
and the coolest thing is,
tmr school starts at 1, and we would be learning volleyball! heee <3

ps: my macbook pro is the coolest shit in the house right now.

blackandwhite! at 9:26 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

im amused with myself.
im writing in this blog, even though the chance of anyone reading this is, 0.1 / 100.
and that 0.1 is me.
oh wells.
manyhappenings lately.
i just bombed. a huge relief.
but anw,
im really sad. and confused.
i thought we had a chance.
or maybe, we could at least have a go at it.
all that skinship.
the sweet messages.
i guess i really have to start growing up.
and be less gullible and naive.
gotta divert all that attention to sth else.
and perhaps, just not bother with anything.
i really like you

you played me out, that broke my heart.

haven been speaking to addy and ass.
thats one thing that makes me sad too.
luckily, tiff & glenda are two awesome gf in church.
jiacheng's as retarded too.
yeap.

blackandwhite! at 10:57 PM

Monday, March 08, 2010

Goodness, i haven blogged for ages
im freaking sure no one reads my blog anymore :/
sigh.
anw, its effing cold in La , Ca here.
but im quite happy that i got a chance to check out the place.
if i really come here to study,
it'd be all about independence and discipline.
im not all too sure whether i'd be able to do just that.
but,
im really sure that i wanna give this a shot and yeahh.
we went down to LA city today and vohhhhhhhh.
there were many limos sighted and the choppers seriously chopped the air above.
roads were closed. so they guessed that sth big was taking place.
AND truthfully,
sth big was really takign place.
THE OSCARS!
heee (:

blackandwhite! at 3:28 PM

Sunday, February 14, 2010

haha. i cant believe it, but im actually looking forward to starting poly.
as in, well. its kinda boring just working and slacking. so i wouldnt mind starting poly NOW.
and i realised, its better to try sth than to regret not trying after you've lost the chance to.
so yupp, treasure your moments with your dearests and happy cny and vday to yall :D
<3

im quite sure of what to do from now onwards (:

blackandwhite! at 9:56 PM

Monday, February 08, 2010

just when i thought i could finally get over sth that was once so precious but yet hurt me once,
when memories flash back , its only then that i realise, i cant let it go.
the chance of it leaving me cost me tears in my dreams.
im still not yet ready

blackandwhite! at 10:30 AM

Friday, January 29, 2010

i am so sorry that i cant make it to sofea's celebration tonight.
FML
and FTS.
i'll explain what that is in time to come.
anw,
can i just Ftheworld.

have been working these few days,
hope i'll earn a bit to buy my blazer.
okay, no mood.
bye.

blackandwhite! at 9:19 PM

Friday, January 22, 2010

oh m gee.

went on a photowalk with florence today.

I DIDNT KNOW MY OLYMPUS COULD TAKE SUCH AWESOMEE PHOTOS!

blackandwhite! at 10:33 PM

Friday, January 08, 2010

oh my goodness.
its been so long, so long since my last post.
alright.
this holiday i've been meeting new people and going out to play.
like, the pub one and the buffet.
the pub was on 1/1/10. andre said his friend's a shareholder so i went with sunny, zorn drix and chou.
drank this shot called, b52 and tried bloody mary and some cocktail which i cant rmb.
then andre treated me a flaming lambo!
which really was on flame and man, after half an hour. i needed to puke.
anw,
ytd.
7/1/10
went for xlb - xiao long bao , buffet.
awesome.
at first xlb tasted great, then it became pukey.
i ate around, 7 pieces at most.
i bet song ate, 15.
the tau hway dessert is awesomeee. oishii!
and i like the char siew bao and the fried man tou.
the steamboat was fine lur.
but really, i was seriously bloated.
then we went to daily scoop for ice creamm.
nth special thou. wanping and andrew lai made it sound so yummy. CHEY.
then we went to song's place which was like some cottage at the back of a church or sth.
played snake and ladders.
instead of drinking shots we drank water.
i kept getting truth or dare -.-
like 4 times at least.
madness,

hmm.
results coming in on 11/1/10
alahh. i liek the number 11!
why must it be on the 11 :/
i wish there was a book that has the answers to all my questions.
i wish i could read ppl's minds.
i wish i would never make any mistakes in my life.
well, thats utterly impossible.

blackandwhite! at 11:18 PM

Friday, December 25, 2009

A merry christmas to everyone out thereee.
I hope ya christmas has been a good one.
afterall, even if one does not have a good time, hopefully others do.
anw, camp was really really fun.
I wish it would have lasted for like a month?
And pearls were super cool.
Gah, i have nth to say. im sure everyone knows why.
typical reason

blackandwhite! at 7:26 PM

Saturday, November 28, 2009

who do i like.
who do i not like.
who do i trust.
who do i not trust.

i think im turning unsociable nowadays.
and its like, im starting to dislike the people around me.
i can easily find fault with them and.
im very irritated with their doings and so on.
im no longer decisive when i decide on things.
i dont feel like telling peoples things i used to tell.
i enjoy watching movies on my tablet now.

blackandwhite! at 10:48 PM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

okay. i was really mean just now.
when i came home from bio paper one, i was welcomed with a poo right in front of the kitchen. that bloody cody, he pooed one in front of the door and another on the newspaper.
so i tried to cage him under the table by shifting all the chairs in positions such that it could sorta, "lock" him inside.
anw, bio was crazy.
its so unfair.
UNFAIR
this is one paper i think is badly set and unfair.
its like, at least half times harder than the past years papers.
i think our batch must be very smart thats why they raised the standard so much higher.
blah. its over, its over. i must TAKE IT EASY.
fuck -.-

okay. adrienna siew wei ying has posted everything on her blog.
watch out woman, cody likes to eat fat chicken wings and thighs alot.
hahahahhaha
AHHHHH
tmr's the last paper!
im so excited.
yknw what asshole and addy.
I DONT FEEL LIKE GOING FOR PROM ANYMORE!
hha. im gonna ask my mum for permission first.
well, she paid for it . ya,.
and. hmm. HOLS A COMING!
i love jang geun suk.
and that sandara park girl addy showed me in the cass beer ad.
so hot.
koreans are so, gee gee gee geelicious :D
anw. my mum bought back ritter sport for me last night
yay.
lala's still in malacca.
that stupid sunny kept crapping online ytd,
- i never introduce lala.
- about my clothings.
- my "ugly socklings" quoted by him. excuse me, its leggings.
anw. i stopped wearing leggings to church alrdy.
i bet he records what i wear lur.
idiot.
okay.
BYE

blackandwhite! at 5:59 PM

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Back on the road again
Feeling kinda lonely and
looking for the right guy
To be mine
Friends say I'm crazy cause
Easily I fall in love
You gotta do it different J
This time

Maybe we'll meet at a bar
He'll drive a funky car
Maybe we'll meet at a club
And fall so deeply in love
He'll tell me I'm the one
And we'll have so much fun
I'll be the girl of his dreams
(maybe)

Alright maybe gonna find him today
i gotta get some one
to call my loveryeah!
baby come on
Alright baby come in
Pass my way
I gotta get someone to call my lover Yeah baby come on
I-YI-I-YI-I-YII-I-II-YI-I-YI-I-YII-I-II-YI-I-YI-I-YII-I-II-YI-I-YI-I-YII-I-I

I spoil them when I'm in love
Given them what they dream of
Sometimes it's not a good thing
But I'm blind
I love hard with everything
Giving my all More than they
I'll take my friends' advice this time
I'll do it differently

Maybe we'll meet at a bar
He'll drive a funky car
Maybe we'll meet at a club
And fall so deeply in love
He'll tell me I'm the one
And we'll have so much fun
I'll be the girl of his dreams
maybe

Alright maybe gonna find him today
I gotta get someone to call my lover
Yeah baby come on
Alright baby come in Pass my way
I gotta get someone to call my lover
Yeah baby come on
I-YI-I-YI-I-YII-I-II-YI-I-YI-I-YII

my my
Looking for a guy guy
I don't want him too shy
But he's gotta have the qualities
That I like in a man
Strong, smart, affectionate
He's gotta be all for me
And I'll be too You see happily

i think this song is so cool.
especially the bridge!
my my.. <3

blackandwhite! at 7:53 PM

Happy happy.
its tues. and there's only e geo exam tmr afternoon.
its like, BOOOMZ. hahaa, time passes so quickly.
soon it would be fri then. tadahh. sunday! then again. monday, but next week it would all be mcqs! one hour exam. although i have chinese :/
oh wells.
it took me close to three hours to finish my entire final revision for natural veg.
i think i'll just scan through river.
then. start on dev around six or sth.
not gonna learn food geo at all.
im so tired.
i actually woke up at 9.30
then my mum was like. sleep longer. then can grow taller.
so i slept till 10. and i think she was stil around and she told me. sleep longer.
haa, i ended up waking at 11.30
my bro was out of house alrdy.
ahhhhhhhhh.
so excited.
o's gonna be over.
o's gonna be overrrrrrrrrrrrr.

im gonna be good without you.

anw, haha. NO PROBLEM ADRIENNA. you will do well okay for os.
asshole too!
i know you learnt the wrong science. but you're very smart one okay.
learn wrong one, means you will ace the right one :D
haha. cause i tell you so!

blackandwhite! at 4:34 PM

Friday, October 30, 2009

aha. wth, some guy tried to smuggle in snakes by rolling them in socks and taping them all over his body.
ONE WORD : SICKKKKKKKKK.

anw, yay. i just attempted a few questions that the school uploaded in preparation for today's paper two.
hope it goes well.
i need to shit.

blackandwhite! at 11:40 AM

Hello addy.
if you even read this.

I saw you when you were on your way to the bus stop ytd.
Why you looked so grumpy and cold uh!
chill chill chill.
Ytd's math paper was of crescent's standard. although slightly easier.
But im not too sure of securing an A still.
you'll never know if we make careless mistakes , right?

But nonetheless, im fucking happy.
Today is Fri! the last day of the first week of exam. 5 down, 6 more to go!
Oh goodness.
I never used my com for almost the entire week.
Okay, wait. i think i came online on monday or tue.
mwha.
Anw,
Im feeling so confused and , perhaps. letting my overwhelming emotions disorient me.
Diaoz. English is over len!
yesh.
I dont want you to message me, wishing me luck. Its as though,
once this exam is over. we will stop messaging.
I dont wanna make it a habit. To expect your messages.
So im telling you now, or rather. last night.
so that i wont fall deeper. the harder you hope, the greater the fall, the disappointment.
been there, dont wanna get there again.
Oh. Marcus wrote me a prayer in his sms.
it was soo cool.

: Dear lord, i thank you for len, and all her crazy ways. Now that she's starting her exams, i pray that you'll be with her, that you continue to comfort, and sustain her as she goes through this stressful period. Give her swiftness of mind, and a quick understanding. And i pray that she'll remember all that she's revised, etc etc. I also pray that you'll constantly remind her that you're there for her, and on her part, that she'll remember to turn to you whenever she feels panicked, or frustrated. All in all i commit this exam period in your hands. Amen. Cast all your cares in to God! And he'll grant you peace beyond all understanding! All the best! Xoxo marcus.

haha. Truuee. My mind went blank for a few moment during the examinations.
I dont know why, its like i stare at the questions. and i dont get what the questions are talking about. But luckily, after a while. I calmed down and figured out what the bloody questions were talking about.

Halloween night tmr!
should i gooooo.
I wanna scare the shit outta' myself.
haha,
But depends if lala's friend stil have that extra ticket.
but i dont wanna go with her friends.
if i go with ass, i have to go home alone.
hahaa.
We'll see.

good luck addy, good luck ass!

blackandwhite! at 10:23 AM

Friday, October 16, 2009

oh man.
looking at seventeen magazine makes me wanna go on a shopping spree!
beloved hongkong, thou shalt wait fer art!
wait, is thou me, or thou you. whatever
anw,
am sitting on the floor now.
i can totally feel my arse expanding and sadly, not contracting.
at least if its contracting, my butt would become small right?
oh .
i think 2fast2furious would be telecasted on sunday or sat.
lovee that show.
hmmm,
I dont think i've been doing much these days!
seriously,
except for tuition on wed, thurs, fri sat.
and i've only been back to school for two days :/
uh,
cant wait for prom!
actually, im not sure about that.
I need to shed that fat before i feel cool bout it.
goodness, its been three days since i touched my tablet.
i want that anna sui rock me perfume or the Jean Paul rose n roll !!!
gahh.

blackandwhite! at 11:04 PM

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

whispers hello, i miss you quite terribly.

that was what gm wrote on the envelope to me.
so sweet.
anw,
crazy days have passed
oh man,
almost two more weeks to os.
am i supposed to freak out :/
graaaaa.
okay, i just found out that the olympus camera has such cool functions!
oh mann. i hate scheming characters in tv shows.
hate them hate them

blackandwhite! at 9:02 PM

Friday, October 09, 2009

not like you're the only one fed up. and have the right to fucking complain right.
i thought today would be a great day after graduation.
FUCK NO
some screwed up shit in my life just keeps screwing my life.
i feel like fucking killing those people.

NO MOOD

blackandwhite! at 11:10 PM

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

oh my goodness.
soccer looks so cool in tv shows.
anw.
haha, adrienna!
go with me to the open house on fri lehh.
and asshole! lets all go out on sunday for lunch and a meet up.
and we're not gonna go taka okay!
and wl.
stop laughing at my posts lar.
very funny issit?
haha.
no need to tell me that i have humour.
HAHA.
today was adventure day.
although im feel sick of attending school.
uh,
at the pat.
we and chelsea aka. ffl (: left for the toilet during bio.
haha, when we came back.
oh yknw, our pat , has this super cool gadget. or facility.
its like, a big hall.
but from the walls, you can pull out seats.
as in, its like, draw out seats.
cool lur.
so when we came up from the toilet, i was like. wanna just sit at the side and listen to mrs yip talk?
cause there's this small wall. which parts the audience and the doors at the side.
so no one knew we were there.
then she saw the back door which leads to the "UNDERGROUND "
kinda hard to describe.
in any case,
we pushed aside many props which i dk who placed it there.
and finally managed to make a big-enough gap for us to squeeze in.
and yay
we were underneath eeveryone else.
as in, they were actually seated, on top of us!
whatever. i dont think anyone understands what im talking about.
blah, cant wait for graduation.
im finding the old me back.
heartless ferocious (:
yeap.
live for myself ! tadah!

blackandwhite! at 8:31 PM

Friday, October 02, 2009

ah.
prom in one months plus time!
shit shit.
if i dont lose any weight,
i dont think i'll wear any nice dress?
oh fuck.
anw,
haha. english consultation with mr tan was funny.
haha, he called fad crazy.
oh wells.
isaac's going to army soon!
wanping sent us an rsvp to lesson on sunday. called, botak isaac.
lol, at first i tot it was a botak jones invitation.
cody's eyes are becoming better!
thank god.

blackandwhite! at 10:01 PM

Monday, September 28, 2009

okay.
fever on fri was no joke.
it rose til like 39.7.
good ness. can start new radio station!
dj len in the house :D
aeh. sounds good.

am so hungry now.
i can rmb so vividly, that porridge throughout the day.
god bless ):

went to church.
we celebrated children's day in kinders.
haha, lovely.
oh well.
just grabb some photos if i can find em.

cant wait for this week to end :/
el elyon should totally join a course together right after exams! cooolios?
yes no?
oh. so much homework to do right after prelims.
can i just drop dead now.
my head spins right round right round right now.
almost everyday please!
Anw.
bringing cody to the vet is a super scary thing to do.
the doctor totally recognizes me as the irresponsible and lazy owner prolly.
keeps scolding me for not keeping his eyes clean. need to groom him.
like fuck.
irritating.
gets on my nerves.
what to do?
shout back at her?
" hey slet. you wanna sue me for not cleaning his yan sai uh? "

okay. slet - slutty vet. haha, hmm. that sounds mean.
yan sai - eye shit.

blackandwhite! at 7:29 PM

Monday, September 21, 2009

Humans are so hypocritical.
Seriously
especially adults.
Children are so much easier to communicate with.
Its no wonder why teenagers love to spend more time with their friends.
Why dont these adults check themselves.
They're not perfect themselves.
yet they expect so much from kids.

This is unreasonable.

Hari Raya at Ass house was okay.
eat, eat, eat, watch bring it on, eat eat eat.
Her parents are so fine (:
Her father was hilarious and her mum was very sweet.
adrienna kept praising her mum.
oh yeahs.
the lil cousins were very lovely too.
haha, we sorta drew them to her room and drove her crazy.
they played with her small guitar and everything.
okay, sayonara.

blackandwhite! at 12:36 PM

Friday, September 18, 2009

okay, here's ass's horoscope

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality... Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

Addy's

LEO - The Boss (July 23 - Aug 22)
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help Others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos . Attractive..

Len's
SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up ( Peter Pan Syndrome ). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing.. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient... Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules... Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

so truee right mine. haha

blackandwhite! at 10:17 PM

AH
Watching the biggest loser now.
Its so fucking sad to see the teams compete to get the parcels sent by their family.
Oh wells.
I wanna take part too!
then i can lose weight ):
anw, YAY YAY YAY
Prelims is officially over.
Chinese was my last paper today.
At first i was thinking why i wanna retake the paper
hmm. it wasnt that bad.
but it wasnt that fun either yknw.
I so so want that hairband and accessory from f21!
gonna save more i guess.
Sunday gonna go asshole's house to do hariraya!
hha. Cant wait for it.
She's gonna wear her ethnic costume man!
first time yknw. haha.
Ass! why are you so sad now.
you must be a cool teletubbie yknw. i lubs you muacks muacks muacks.

oh, i almost died today.
adrienna, yknw why right?
hahaha.
okay, i'll tell yall.
i died cause she was so disgusting today.
she has to pay me 1 buck each time she is disgusting.
haha, and she told me that i shld pay her each time i act pretty.
Dont need to act what, alrdy am.
hahaha
oh, the pets at vivo! sooooo lovely.
i think i wanna work at a pet shop during the holiday!
helll yeah.
see me there end of the year! :D

blackandwhite! at 7:47 PM

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

okay.
i found out this morning.
or wait. was it ytd
whatever
that adrienna and asshole keeps laughing at my posts and my uh. captions. ya lorr.
really arse lar.
haha
then i arranged to meet adrienna today for lunch.
biang, i said 12 okay!
ADRIENNA SIEW
i said 12.
yknw what time she came?
12.25
she's the bomb.
5 mins to being half an hour late.
wha, she can set new record everytime she meet me.
anw.
hah, but we spent one hour at the bus stop talking.
lol,
then i spotted a pair of wings on the road.
gross.
i know.

met chelsea at the library.
hah. she's a really good chem consultant. REALLY.
oh wells.
two more days of exams and im freeeee.
for a few weeks that is.
headache now headache.
so sick.
BYE

blackandwhite! at 9:00 PM